The
patch that mother is on seems to be working quite well. However its a sign of
mother's progression down her path that it requires a strong supplement of oral
medications to keep her comfortable. The upside is that we have reached a new
plateau of comfort that allows us good mobility and alert days of joy and
laughter. Her sense of humor is strong and she is pain free most of the
time.
Yesterday we even took a trip to County Park to watch the sunset. We were the only humans there but there was a lot of activity by the partridge family, the robins, crows and even a bald eagle came to check on us.
Last night
we slept from 11 until 2 and then again from 2:30 until 8:30. She did not get
out of her bed until 10:30 because she was so comfortable. We have a fire on and
will spend a warm and cozy fall day at home. Tomorrow Laura arrives for a two
day visit and mother is really looking forward to that as am I. Spiritually
mother still wonders why this is taking so long and why god does not let her
die. Like most humans she wavers between a feeling of control and self
determination on the one hand a sense of helplessness and dependence on God (or
some outside force) to make the decisions for her on the other. It is a
challenging time to face such dichotomies. Better I think to have that sorted
out long before one gets to this stage.
On a beam of light
Thomas